Sleep might be one of my absolute favorite things in the world. Nothing is better than that deep sleep, you know the one…where nothing can wake you up…except the phone vibrating right next to you. Yup, I was woken up to a phone call from my boyfriend this morning and also a text that I was reading while not really listening to him. Then realized he was calling about the text.
I’m not going to get too deep into the topic of what it was about or ALL THE DRAMA that came after it. BUT I am going to talk about my feelings, because they’re real and they’re validated and they’re more important than anyone else’s.
I remember when my brother died everyone gave their condolences and said “he had the biggest heart and most beautiful smile.” What a friken compliment! It was so true, and I don’t know what’s really more important than that in this life.
I can honestly say the same about myself, I have a big heart (smile is super questionable #restingbitchface), I trust easily and I get hurt often. I fear the day I don’t see the good in the world so I take advantage of that shit while I have it! Like I said, I get hurt often - because I give people the benefit of the doubt and trust that they will do the right thing and honestly even love them when they don’t!
BUT when people think their feelings come before mine….
NO. They don’t.
I don’t love you, I actually can’t stand you.
Fuck You.
For too long I have allowed others to put me on the backburner, and honestly I like it there most of the time. But when people who really don’t hold a huge place in my life - because they have created drama - create MORE drama, that creates a BIG problem for me. So after two hours of talking/venting about it here’s what I came up with:
Some people just aren’t good people.
It’s okay to say you don’t want said people in your life.
It’s also okay to block the shit out of them on social media!
My peace of mind means more to me than “people pleasing” people I don’t even like and who aren't even nice to me.
WOWWW! I need to read that over and over again 500 times a day…starting today!